May 13, 2020 at 5:19 pm #2189
Checking in and glad to be sober from acting upon lust for another day. I suffer from the pornshop of the mind and have been in 12 step recovery from this problem since January, 2004 and just checking in with one week of sobriety. I have seen much victory over my lust, resentment, fear and anger over the years, but struggling with maintaining it one day at a time. Longest sobriety I have ever had was almost 10 months. I am on here too for another place to check in and was using CSGSAR.ORG StMikes.org up until last December, 2019 and it shut down due to the founder of the site passing away who was Brother Ignatius Mary (Richard Collet from Ottumwa, IA. It was composed of 20 steps and it was in the format of a discussion board where you register and create topics and could check in different areas of the website discussion rooms. If anybody knows of something similar to this let me know. Very hard to find under the Catholics. Thank you and have a blessed day!May 13, 2020 at 5:24 pm #2190
I am committing to sobriety for another day with God’s help. Have a blessed day!May 16, 2020 at 8:59 pm #2196
I am checking in with another day of sobriety and recovery. Thanks be to God. Some struggles today included some feelings of anger, resentment and some fear came up and continuing to work on this. My anger was towards this man who is a bit older than me from SAA here in Indianapolis who has repeatedly tried to get a hold of me after I had told him almost a year ago that I did not want him calling me again since my gut feeling told me that he was up to no good and I didn’t want any part of it. He did leave me a message recently and I texted back for him to stop and too not try to contact me anymore. I think it has worked since I did not get a response. I feel a reprieve from this. currently grateful for God’s graces, peace and giving me a better road to take. Until later I will stay the course. This is very helpful to have a place to check in on again like CSGSAR.
Have a blessed night,
Geoff HMay 16, 2020 at 10:25 pm #2197chuck tautkusParticipant
testingMay 17, 2020 at 5:24 pm #2200
Thanks for the check – in. I am staying sober and in recovery and letting go of lust for another day. I have about 10 days and do feel more in control of my life again. Thanks be to God! I have to be honest with myself as I start thinking about using porn again that it will be a repeat scenario of more pain and suffering afterwards. I have had success in the past for longer periods of time and know that I have to get over this long overdue hump of periodically slipping with some letting go issues. It’s only one day at a time and that is all it is or else I am not able to do this as I learned many years in this program. In the meantime staying within boundaries that looks like no sex with self or others unless married, staying away from teaser images and of course pornography and masturbation which is the main way I act upon lust and use to act out with women anonymously, which has been a good number of years now. I am also using this website as an accountability tool and checking in on SA phone mtgs and my counselor and daily prayer. I will commit to another day of recovery and check in on here tomorrow.
Have a blessed night,
Geoff HMay 18, 2020 at 3:40 pm #2212Chuck AnonymousParticipant
Is anyone going to the 10 pm zoom meeting for lust tonight?May 19, 2020 at 10:32 am #2214
Checking in and glad to be sober for another day. Thanks be to God! Using Zoom or Tic Toc is nice but it is owned by a Chinese Company and shouldn’t be used for that reason alone. It is also another means to track people like any and all smart devices. I don’t want to get into outside issues, but I would recommend using an SA phone mtgs where it is more anonymous and I have used them for the past 8 plus years along with face to face mtgs in the past. Go to Sexaholics Anonymous phone mtgs online and should be able to find it fairly easily. You just dial in on a regular number into a conference call and then you are prompted to put in an access code and then you are in. Some of the meetings I go to is through this number 605-475-6700 access code 7138664# for the 7:30AM Eastern Time and some other ones. You will see an updated list online. I need to surrender the lust levels have been getting high in the evening time and thankfully through God’s help letting go of struggles with the porn-shop of the mind, wanting to plan a future relapse, some fear of the unknown right now with my career and also briefly starting and stopping with masturbation last night and getting this all out in the light on a morning SA Phone Mtg. Just taking this one day at a time and I will work on committing to another day of sobriety and recovery.
Have a blessed day,
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