May 15, 2020 at 11:15 am #2192Geoff HParticipant
Checking in and glad to be in recovery from lust, anger, resentment and fear one day at a time. I am staying sober and feeling lots of feelings that I have to feel in recovery and need God’s help to continue doing this one day at a time. Letting go of horrible politics, disagreements, underemployment to God and I will continue in doing my part in recovery. Also working on letting go thoughts of acting upon lust in the future by taking this one day at a time. I will commit to another day.
Have a blessed day,
GeoffMay 20, 2020 at 5:55 am #2220
testMay 20, 2020 at 6:03 am #2221
Checking in here
Doing much better today – went to a zoom AA meeting and the topic was something very relevant to me for that day. Subject was irritable and discontent. I shared that we are sober by maintaining a fit spiritual condition, and I can get irritable and kind of develop crap attitudes towards others around me which ruins the fit condition and threatens my sobriety. I shared that I can’t have these kinds of attitudes towards others. I absolutely must overcome these or I will find myself struggling. Its not a sort of, kind of, somewhat nice thing to do – it is mandatory that I overcome this. People shared about praying, going for a walk, getting to the root cause of the problem or going to meetings as means to manage this. I had been struggling to get rid of the crappy attitudes towards others yesterday, and I finally overcame them last night. I think the meeting helped a lot.
Anyway, that is my check inMay 20, 2020 at 8:59 am #2222Geoff HParticipant
I appreciate the share above.
Checking in with another day of sexual sobriety from porn, masturbation and not visiting massage parlors and prostitutes for years now. I am sober for 13 days and thank God for the little bit of sobriety I do have and it feels as if it has been much longer than that. My addict is doing push-ups for the future and today is all that counts and I need God’s help so that I don’t entertain my lust and break sobriety again. I am also letting go of attitudes that want to come up and put me in a bad place.
Have a blessed day,
Geoff HMay 21, 2020 at 5:29 am #2228
Not doing so well today. Vertigo is making me nauseous. Really tired & dragging – didn’t exercise or pray much this morning. So I have a concern about physical discomfort and pain for today. I guess I will do a lot more praying at lunch as well as on the way to work, but my day really needs to be focused on other people’s needs and what I can do to serve. I am not sure what else.May 25, 2020 at 4:40 am #2233
Today will not be easy. Sitting here thinking what will be the obstacles to maintaining the “fit spiritual condition” the AA Big Book describes, and I need to be on my guard to accept whatever anger or criticism my wife sends my way and respond with sincere charity and seek opportunities to be of service to her. In order to do this, I have to spend a good amount of time in prayer. I won’t do well if I don’t spend at least 15 minutes praying in the morning, afternoon and evening. I also need to exercise to prevent irritability
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